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WIND LOAD

I'm here, but I'm not there

I wander somewhere

Birds sing, but I'm sad

Who am I ? Is this life ?
I need my pills every morning and night

Or maybe I need a knife, I hate my life

Voices in my head, muddy road

Closed mind, wind load

But it's not me
I don't recognize myself

Birds sing, a clown is laughing

Please I need my pills right now

I'm suffering
Pain
Please I need my pills right now

Or maybe I need a knife, for afterlife

Voices in my head, muddy road

Closed mind, wind load

BRIGHTER DAY

I stomp my feet
I feel the ground
Look at the stars and the moonlight

So help me God
I lost myself in the night

I'm crawling like a snake

I'm drowning in the sand

I try to find a way
To build a brighter day

I'm like dust in the air
A wind from heaven in hell

So help me God
I lost myself in the night

THE SHOWER

I'm in the shower
I wash my skin
4 AM I forget what I've been

Blood and water in my hands

Whatever, I will live later

I'm in the shower

Erase my pain
5 AM I forget who I am

Blood and water on my skin

Whatever, I will be later

All I feel is broken now

I fall to pieces anyhow
I am dead inside somehow

I try to smile but I cry

All I feel is broken now

I fall to pieces anyhow
I am dead inside somehow

I try to live but I die

Tomorrow is another day

NOWHERE

Everything is burning around me

Empty spaces
Crying faces
But there is nobody out of here

I hear the silence, I face my fear

Maybe there is a way to leave this nightmare

Maybe there is a gate

Everything is dying around me

Human races
Smiling faces
But there is nobody out of here

No more silence or fear

There is nothing

Maybe there is a way to leave this nightmare

Maybe there is a gate

I'm losing my mind, don't let me down

I wanna kiss your lips one more time

I'm losing my mind, don't let me down

Maybe there is a way to leave this nightmare

Maybe there is an escape

Everything is burning around me

Empty spaces
Crying faces
But there is nobody out of here

I hear the silence

THE DINNER

Welcome to the dinner chérie

Je t'ai attendue tout le soir

Entouré de toutes ces vies

De ces visages, de ces regards

Vêtue de ta jolie robe rouge

Le monde te dévisage

Les larmes te font verser

Eparpiller ton maquillage

Des ombres dansent sous les néons

Les lumières artificielles
Les morts sortent de leurs tombes

Je t'en prie, sors moi de l'enfer

Ferons nous l'amour ce soir

Peut-être ou pas
Ou dans tes rêves
Ou dans les miens
Il y a de la place
Je t'en ferai si tu le souhaites

Ne mets pas de distance
Ne mets pas de distance

Autour de mes draps brillent des miroirs
Je te vois partout même dans le noir

Nos deux coeurs en équilibre

Sur un fil aiguisé
Des cordes au cou
Nos pieds sur un brasier

Une histoire légendaire

D'amoureux que l'on est

Cela sera peut-être un jour

Un conte de fée

Notre barque échouée

Sur une plage désolée

De silence et de bruit

D'étouffement et de cris

Des feuilles mortes, folles
Se fâchent sur le sol

L'impression que tu m'en veux encore

Allez, viens, on s'envoie en l'air

Laisse-moi vivre ou mourir

Dans tes vapeurs

Pour l'éternité

GHOST SONG #2

There's no way out, they say

There's a way out, I swear

I have so much love for you

There is no love without you

I miss you

I love you

TOO LATE

I'm waking up

The storm is coming

The sky is crying

This is the end, this is the beginning

I feel the sadness, I feel the madness

That's our new home

Welcome to the darkness

I feel the rain, I feel your tears

I feel your pain, the waves of the seas

Please take my hand, please don't go

But all I know is that it's too late

Darling, it's too late

It seems like a twist of fate

My love, it's too late

I'm leaving, I'm so desperate

I was born to die

I was waiting for you

Loneliness was the only truth

My love, it's too late

I'm leaving, I'm so desperate

I was born to die

It's too late

I WANNA FUCK YOU

I wanna lick your lips

Wanna taste your tongue

I wanna, I wanna

I wanna be your bomb

I wanna lick your body

Wanna eat your pussy

Wanna, I wanna

I wanna bang, bang, bang

I wanna be your toy

I wanna be your boy

I wanna, I wanna

I wanna be your love

I wanna be the one

You're gonna be the one

I wanna be your lighter

You're gonna feel my fire

I'm your vampire

You're my desire

You're the one I want

Tonight, tonight

Oh my God

I want you so

I need you so

I want you so bad

I want you so much

You have to know

I wanna fuck you

RAINBOW

She's like a rainbow

When it's rainy in my mind

She's a cannonball
I am an exploding heart

She's like a sunshine

When it's dark in my bed

She's like a moonlight

When there's nothing in my sky

She's like a devil

When I try to be so kind

She's like an angel
When I'm angry she always smiles

I fell in love in hotel room

Everyday she's a flower in bloom

RUN RUN RABBIT

Run Run Rabbit

I’m gonna shot you down

Run Run Rabbit

You made me fall down

Run Run Rabbit

Yeah you know I love you

Run Run Rabbit

But I hate you too

Disappear from my life

Run Run Rabbit

You know I got a gun

Run Run Rabbit

And I'll do it for fun

Run Run Rabbit

I want you in my bed

Run Run Rabbit

But I want you dead

Disappear from my life

This is a warning

Rabbit is always alive

You have to kill him

He destroyed my life

I want him dead, right now

Run Run Rabbit

I’m gonna shot you down

I love you

But I hate you

I want you in my bed

But I want you dead

GHOST SONG #1

I see you dancing around me

You're so sweet

In this room
I try to find you

Where are you ?

REVOLVER

Yeah, I'm a dreamer, a sleepwalker and a lover

I'm not awakening, I'm so lazy

I'm only sleeping

And I might move somewhere

But I don't know where

Tell me the way to find you again

I will take the taxi

With no money

Cuz' the taxman is my enemy

So I will take this yellow thing

The yellow submarine

I feel so down today but the Dr. Robert's got the way

To feel better he said

But she said, she said...

If our life is a bad song

If it is

Good Day Sunshine, yeah of course

Life doesn't make sense

This morning and your bird can sing

So I will go to pray at the Father McKenzie's

I'll meet Daisy Hawkins

Who is called Miss Rigby

I'm singing a song

Love you to

Did you cry for no one

I'm still crying over you

Got to get you into my life babe

Tomorrow never knows

I want to tell you so many things

But I don't know how

And I might move somewhere

But now I know where

I wanna be with you

Here, There, and Everywhere

NO WAY OUT

There is a window
With bars
There are too much tears and scars

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my prison

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my heart

I tried so hard to save you from my prison

But I can't, I love you
For so many reasons

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my prison

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my heart

I wanna keep you near me

I wanna build a wall
I don't have the key

To open you the door

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my prison

There is no escape for you

You're still inside my heart

produced by Claudio Bagnato

all songs written, played and recorded by Claudio Bagnato

mixed and mastered by Pascal Brunkow at Damp Studio

Additional production by Pascal Brunkow

at the psychiatric hospital « Département Pôle Santé Mentale, Hôpital Du Jura Bernois SA, Bellelay, Switzerland » between December 30th, 2019 - March 4th, 2020

Wind Load

The first song of the album and the first one written and recorded at the psychiatric hospital. It’s a rough song. My emotions was going upside down, it was really hard to deal with it. We can hear my tears in the beginning of the song, tears mixed with uncontrollable, nervous fits of laughter and hallucinations, I was totally lost at that time. The lyrics are about isolation and death wish. Also, we can hear the backgrounds noises.

C’est le premier morceau de l’album et le premier écrit et enregistré à l’hôpital psychiatrique. C’est un morceau très lourd. Mes émotions allaient dans tous les sens, je n’arrivais pas à les gérer. On y entend mes sanglots au tout début, des sanglots mélangés à des fous rires nerveux et hallucinations, j’étais totalement perdu à ce moment là. C’est une chanson qui parle d’isolation et d’envie de mort. Durant tout le morceau on y entend les bruits de couloirs du centre.

Brighter Day

I felt such an ermite, lost in those cold corridors, most of the time I got out the center to smoke cigarettes. I carried anxiety with pain, I could feel my pulse beats to the feet. The feeling to be grounded, spent the most of the time for hand wringing, crawling like a snake. So, I often raised my eyes to the sky, expecting a divinity could save me, such a guide to the light and not the obscurity. Third single of the album.

Je me sentais comme un ermite perdu dans ces couloirs froids du centre, souvent j’en sortais pour fumer mes cigarettes. Je trainais des angoisses qui me faisaient ressentir le battements de mon coeur jusqu’aux pieds. L’impression d’être cloué au sol à me morfondre, à ramper comme un serpent. Alors souvent je levais mes yeux au ciel, espérant qu’une divinité pourrait me sauver de mes tourments, qu’elle me guide vers la lumière et non l'obscurité. Troisième single de l’album.

The Shower

First single of the album. In this song I talk about my usuals awakenings in the shower. I opened my eyes, I looked out the window and I walked towards the shower. I often did anxiety attacks. I could stay 30 minutes in the shower, sitting on the tiled floor, crying, trying to understand what happened to me. I used to have shower to wash away sins and deep suffering. Sometimes, I wanted to continue to move, other times I wanted to die. Sometimes, I couldn’t remember who I was, who I’ve been. These episodes were repeated in successive morning. « Tomorrow is an other day », a way to get motivated, to liberate myself from my depressive torments. To tell myself that tomorrow will be brighter despite my uncertain mental situation.

Premier single de l’album. Dans cette chanson je parle de mes réveils fréquents sous la douche. J’ouvrais les yeux, je regardais par la fenêtre et je me dirigeais sous la douche. Souvent j’y faisais des crises d’angoisse. Je pouvais y rester parfois trente minutes assis sur le carrelage en pleurant et en essayant de comprendre ce qu’il m’arrivait. En ces temps j’utilisais la douche pour me laver de mes pêchés, de mon mal être. Parfois j’avais envie de continuer à avancer, d’autres fois je voulais en finir. Souvent je ne me souvenais plus qui j’étais et qui j’ai été. Et ces épisodes se répétaient chaque matin. « Tomorrow is an other day », une façon de me motiver, de me sauver de mes tourments et de me dire que demain sera certainement lumineux malgré l’incertitude de mon état.

Nowhere

Name of the album. « Nowhere » to illustrate the nowhere in every point. The lyrics relate the song « The Shower » in some ways. The desire to be saved by someone or something, while everything dies around and inside me.

Titre de l’album. « Nowhere » pour illustrer le nulle part en tout point. Les paroles rejoignent en quelques sortes le titre « The Shower ». L’envie d’être sauver par quelqu’un, par quelque chose, alors que tout meurt autour de moi et à l’intérieur.

The Dinner

Rooted by hallucinations and nightmares. The song is about the meeting with someone you love, someone you want to, someone you desire above all, who’s totally loosed by the distance and that you try in vain to catch up. A destructive love story. It’s the only French song.

Issu d’hallucinations et de cauchemars. La chanson parle de la rencontre avec une personne qu’on aime, que l’on désire plus que tout, qui est totalement détachée par la distance et que nous essayons en vain de rattraper. Une histoire d’amour destructrice. C’est le seul titre en français.

Ghost Song #2

It could be a song intended to someone we love. But first of all, it’s a song about mirror effect. A love self song, when we can no longer accept ourself.

Cela pourrait être une chanson destiné à une personne que l’on aime. Mais elle est avant tout une chanson consacrée à l’effet miroir. Une chanson d’amour à soi-même alors que nous ne pouvons plus nous accepter.

Too Late

A song about death and suicide. No return back is possible. Everything is in the lyrics.

Une chanson qui parle de mort et de suicide. Aucun retour en arrière n’est possible. Tout est dans les paroles.

I Wanna Fuck You

Two months without sex… it was really hard. Also related from a dream, I address women. I am telling to them about my sexual pulsions.

Deux mois sans sexe… ça été compliqué. Egalement issu d’un rêve, je m’adresse à plusieurs femmes. Je leurs fais part de mes pulsions sexuelles.

Rainbow

A beautiful way to say I love you to someone in a dream. Second single of the album.

Une jolie façon de dire je t’aime à quelqu’un dans un rêve. Deuxième single de l’album.

Run Run Rabbit

Also related from a nightmare, I was hunted by a loved one, who wanted to kill me. Disguised in rabbit in flat desert fields, I tried to escape from her but in vain. At the end, she wasn’t alone but accompanied by a women armada, armed to the teeth. Luckily for me, I woke up in time.

Aussi issu d’un cauchemar, j’étais en proie d'une amoureuse, qui souhaitais me faire la peau. Déguisé en lapin dans de vastes champs désertique, j’essayais de lui échapper mais impossible. Pour terminer elle n’était plus toute seule mais accompagnée d’une armada de femmes armées jusqu’au coup. Fort heureusement je me suis réveillé à temps.

Ghost Song #1

A love song intended for my lucky stars and ghosts.

Une chanson d’amour destinée à mes bonnes étoiles et aux fantômes.

Revolver

The folk song of the album, that tells a love story related with The Beatles album « Revolver » that is to my sense their best album.

La chanson folk de l’album, qui raconte une histoire d’amour en lien avec l’album « Revolver » des Beatles qui est à mon sens leur meilleur album.

No Way Out

Prime selfish love, I wanted to say I love you to a missing one, who will not come back, but who I still hold in my heart. My heart is a prison with no way out.

L’amour égoïste par excellence, je souhaitais dire je t’aime à quelqu’un disparu, qui ne reviendra jamais, mais je garde dans mon coeur, qui en fin de compte est une prison sans moyen d’évasion possible.

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